April 15, 2008

I've been doing a lot of thinking.  I haven't come up with many solutions but thinking is a good place to start.

I have this bizarre tendency to come up with ideas that I think are great and really excite me, then for some bizarre reason I put them off until suddenly I realize, I never did what I intended to do.  I don't know if I put it off because I'm afraid I won't execute it the way I envision it or if I just put it off because I get so excited that I don't want to be done right away.  I know that might not make any sense at all to anyone who is reading this, but somehow it makes a whole lot of sense in my brain. 

I'm one of those people that tends to battle off every day stress by having something fun to look forward to.  If I start to stress about something I say "But it's okay cause tomorrow you're going to the movies with a friend! Yay! Life is good!"  I even did it when I was a kid. If I was having a low moment I would think to myself "Oh wait!  So and so's birthday party is tomorrow!  Yay! Happy time!".

 I have the sneaking suspicion that I do the same thing with little projects and ideas.  When I come up with something to draw that excites me, or a photograph to take or a super blog entry,  I get excited because I had a stroke of creativity and imagination and I think maybe I don't like to let that feeling go.  Is this making more sense now (she asks the non-responsive internets)?

This is an old hurdle that I've finally decided to take notice of and do something about.  This makes me excited.  I hope I don't put off doing something about it, because in the end, if I don't follow through with my fun ideas, I become stressed. Aaahh, see there?  Full circle. Yeeeah.

Wait, what was I excited about?